Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Blog #3

I don't really have a title for this blog, just some more randomness. On Monday and today Wednesday I have done 10 minutes of yoga each. Which isn't very much, but its definitely a whole lot more than what I was doing previously. On Monday, man did I realize how out of shape I was when I started the yoga. Its just terrible, lol! I was sore all day Tuesday and I only did 10 minutes!!

This has really opened my eyes to how out of shape I've become since the pregnancy and whatnot. I completed another 10 minutes today even though I was still a little sore, but it makes me feel good as well. I can feel my muscles working and I have always liked that feeling.

In cooking news, I am working on my third batch of French bread. So far so good I think. I also baked a walnut cake from Julia Child's Mastering the Art of French Cooking for potluck tonight. It is SO GOOD and I haven't even done the topping yet! I am really enjoying baking and cooking. I mean, I always liked it but I never got off of my tush and did it. Its really fulfilling actually. Its kind of like a creative outlet and I feel as though I've accomplished something. And everyone benefits too, lol!!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Blog #2/New Years Resolutions

Today's church sermon was really good. Pastor Bruce talked about how we can do nothing without God's help. We can do all things through him. It made me think about my weight struggles and whatnot. Every time that I've tried to lose weight and have prayed to God to help me, I've always lost weight. So, the question in my mind is, why don't I do this more? Pastor Bruce also said that we can only really change when we actually change our habits, instead of always going back to our same routine. We have to make different habits and create new pathways in our brains.

So, I'm thinking this is what I need to do. I need to start making a habit of praying every single day (probably in the morning would be best) and asking God for help in losing weight and getting healthier. All things are possible with God, so why wouldn't me losing weight be possible? I've also thought about posting my daily food intake on this blog. I think it would be kind of an accountability thing because I'd have to live with everyone knowing that I ate like an entire bag of laffy taffy or half of a 5 gallon ice cream bucket with 3 brownies.

Which brings me to another interesting thought that I had today. I think in a way I'm a binge eater. I've really been thinking about it and I really have no self-control over eating. If we have a bag of peanut butter cups, I eat and eat and eat it until they are all gone. The same goes for ice cream, brownies, cookies, and lots of other things. I also almost never eat a meal without getting seconds. Its ridiculous. I just can't seem to get it into my head that I can always have more another time. I don't have to stuff myself with it or eat it all like I'll never have it again. Part of me wonders if it doesn't stem from when I was a kid and I would get a lot of food and not finish it and then get in trouble for not finishing my plate. I feel really badly if I leave even a little bit of food on a plate. I feel like I'm wasting food.

So, I've been thinking of incorporating this into my New Years Resolutions. I think they are going to be as follows:

Not getting seconds every single time I eat a meal.
Only having one treat a day.
Limiting my intake of diet soda or any soda period.
Not feeling bad if I don't finish a meal.
Reading my bible every day and trying to read the entire bible in a year.
Praying to God everyday to help me in losing weight.

I know the saying goes that people only make resolutions so that they can break them, but I really feel like I need to make some changes in my life. I'm not where I want to be, and its time to change that. If anyone wants to join me on this journey please follow me here on this blog and let me know. It would be wonderful to share this with someone.

So, in closing I wanted to share scripture from today's sermon that really struck me.

Matthew 12:36 & 37

But I tell you that every careless word that people speak, they shall give an accounting for it in the day of judgement.
For by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Introduction/Blog #1

This is my first blog, so I thought that I would introduce myself. I've thought about doing a blog for quite some time now and finally decided to go ahead and do it. I doubt anyone will read it, but why not?

My name is Jessie and I've been married for 8 years and have three wonderful children, a boy and two girls. I am incredibly overweight, have terrible eating habits, love to read, watch tv and movies, listen to music, and be with my family. I hope to explore all the troubles, successes, and in betweens with this blog. With the new year approaching, I want to set my sights on losing a good amount of weight and just plain getting healthier before I am thirty. I have a little under two years....

My major problem is my eating habits. I eat way too much fast food, too often. I drink way too much diet soda, too often. And when we have ice cream or any kind of candy or dessert I eat it all until its gone. Almost in a bingelike fashion. I've committed the sin of gluttony basically. I want to get my eating habits under control and lose weight, to be an example to my children, and to perhaps keep from sharing my bad habits with my children. I don't really know what exactly that I'll be writing in this blog, but I hope and pray that it helps me on my journey to a healthier me in more ways than one.